This week was very stressful for me, I mean I am one of those people who hold a lot in and expects perfection from myself and as Greg puts it has a lot of irons in the fire (I can't help it) so there is always stress in my life, but this was a different kind of stress.
Last, Friday I received a message from a school district I applied for in Redding. For those who don't know, we are moving to Redding at the middlish of summer for Gregs work. I am worried because Redding is a smaller city (there is a population of 90 thousand so it's not like it's tiny), but a lot less chances for a teaching job for a first year teacher. Well , I found a posting for a Redding school district hiring for their hiring pool for the upcoming school year. So, after I made my interview appointment for Friday it sunk in that I had a CAREER Interview!
In that second it's not just the stress of trying to get a job, but of seeing the possibility of your dreams coming true. Finally a chance to start practicing my skills on my own classroom instead of someone else's. The chance to actually be doing the job I went to school for and am paying school loans for. The chance to move closer to clearing my credential. The chance to move my life in the next step that I feel like I have been in limbo. The chance to make enough money to pay off bills and save for a house. The chance to be permanent somewhere doing what I LOVE. This is what I want and need for me to start feeling successful and whole in my adult career and in the "planned" direction I have for my life-the chance to get some control.
I know just by reading that your like wow Steph you can't put that much pressure on yourself-,but when you want something so bad and it's a huge puzzle piece missing in your life it's hard not to. I know that I can do this I just have to have them know it... fast forward the interview went OK-I think I let the nerves get to me and it wasn't my best, but the good news is they will let me know by the end of this week if I move onto the next interviews in front of the superintendent and the hiring principals.
I am excited for this chance and it looks like an amazing district, so fingers crossed and prayers. We got to drive around Redding a little, which either of us have been around he he. Good news is we both liked what we saw, it had a charming feel a little small town mixed with some character with all my needed amenities-target, taco bell, papa Murphy's :). lol
After the interview we decided to drive the extra hour to relax in McCloud and relax we did!